Monday, November 9, 2015

The Last Little Bit


I used to have so much to say here in this space.  I would compose blog posts while I ran, while I  showered.  Pretty much all the time I was thinking about writing something.  But lately, like the last 3 years, I have had very little to say.  I still love the idea of sharing a glimpse of my life...I just am not sure what is worth sharing anymore.


I hate to say that I have been so busy it has been hard for me to find the time to write here...because I always hate hearing how people are "so busy" they do not have the time...I have plenty of time I spend doing LOTS of other things.  But I just don't seem to find myself in front of this screen often.

And right now with so many growing people around me I am VERY aware of the things I am doing they are VERY much observing.  I don't like them spending much time in front of screens.  So I try to set an example.  So there.  That is a little bit of what has been going on.


I have been VERY busy setting an example.  And sometimes I realize I am doing a horrible job...or maybe I should see it as showing an example of how NOT to behave.  Since my kids are in school and away from me the majority of the day I have to be even more tuned in when I do get to be with them.


And lately my brain is filled with doing and saying the right thing in this these people.  I wish I had some wisdom to share here.  The only wisdom I have to share is ...boy, being a mama is the most heartbreaking wonderful thing I will ever get to do.  But I think us mama's all get that.  That's not news to anyone...but some days I am OVERWHELMED with gratitude that I get to do this.


I am starting the wrap up process over here.  There was a small window when we thought we would get to stay here in Sitka for 2 more years.  That was pretty exciting for us to think about not having to move..staying in one place for 5 years.  In this place.  But the window closed for us, but opened for someone else.  We are grateful to have been brought back here.  But it is time to start the whole leaving process and I kind of love/fear/loath this part.


The do-er in me loves to get things done, paint walls, move furniture, get rid of things....make things happen.  I put a lot of work into selling our house and it can be fun when you get into making it all come together and somebody else likes it enough to buy it.

But my poor family.  They have to live with me literally cleaning up under them ...



So..if anyone is in the market for a super cute house in Southeast Alaska..please let me know.  I would love to check that off my list.