Friday, April 10, 2015

Others Are Watching

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*not our church but a very beautiful Episcopal church

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*It's almost painful to look at these pictures taken last Friday when we were treated to 3 days of no rain.  It is snowing right now...so...

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The other day I took the little kids up to the library in town.  Let me just say we have the best library here and we use it often.  But sadly I mostly only have 4 of the 6 with me when I go.  It seems like less and less I have all 6 together when we run little errands.

I brought  a small pile up to check out and before the librarian opened my account I gave her a warning to not be alarmed when she saw my very large fine and that I was well aware of it.

She actually SIGHED in relief and said to me "Oh good, I often think to myself how you do all that you do with your kids and you seem to have it altogether."

She was giddy to find out that I have at least one flaw, probably a big one to her, late book/movie returner.  I laughed and told her...late books were just the tip of my inabilities.

I continued on, but the little interaction stayed with me..I think it was the sigh..and the twinkle in her eye when she found fault with me.  My fault gave her a little boost ...I made her feel better by showing a weakness.  I was humbled to think that my mistake could give her a smile, for even a moment.  But the part that really stayed with me was, she said she thought of me often.  I never would have known that or considered my effect on her.

It was such a reminder to me. Because I walk around surrounded by short, cute people I draw attention to myself and if I like it or not people make judgments.   We all do that.  Then we stack ourselves against what we notice.

I want my actions to glorify God.  I want people to leave an interaction with me feeling good about themselves.  Either because they witnessed an action on my part that they appreciated, or because they remembered that I am human...very human...weak and flawed and trying.  And sometimes I remember to try more than others.

Have A Great Weekend and remember...people are always watching what you do. NO PRESSURE WHATSOEVER!!

5 comments:

  1. Great thoughts. Humility...a virtue worth working at. See...being perfect might not get you to heaven after all.

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  2. Yes - I have actively been pursuing being transparent. I notice that anytime I say to someone "my son has autism" it starts a conversation and other people jump in and tell me about their kids and their struggles - but I also notice that I've become the one to go first. I've told my husband that I feel isolated a lot because not many women open up as quickly haha.

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  3. Hi Alyssa,
    I always feel like I am the one who shares more than others. I have no problem saying what is up...good or bad.
    I know what you mean about feeling isolated because after you have shared something and there is a creepy silence you can't help but think that you may actually be the only person in the world who has done something like that..or felt a certain way. But I have to imagine their silence is not disgust or dismay..but amazement on my ability to mess up completely.

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  4. Barbara,
    My kids getting older has quickly taught me I am FAR from perfect and expecting perfection only causes heartache. I love your encouragement !!
    Lisa

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  5. Such a good reminder. You never know how the smallest thing affects others- good or bad.

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