My mind has been racing these last few weeks. We have been busy in a way that I never imagined. I kinda really dig it. I like the challenge and the adventure. Not always the crashes that come along side this type of adventure...but what a ride.
We spent some time in Mobile with friends that we miss in a big way. When I am with them I am convicted in a BIG way ...I want to be a better Catholic just by being in the presence of these moms!! They. Are . The. Best..and they make me want to be the best. How lucky am I??
So..you wanna hear the truth?? My mind and heart have been opening up more and more to home schooling again. Slowly my mind and heart are thinking about giving it another go. When I was in Mobile I spent time with these amazing young catholic girls and I was reminded of the beautiful product home schooling produces. I want back in....
Here is the deal...my girls do NOT. They do not want to go back to "not being part of school" and all the fun things school has meant for them. Try as I might, I can't help but take this reaction personal. I will say that the schools the kids went to were AMAZING schools. They were not Catholic...but they were REALLY good. Great families and very amazing teachers. We all loved it!!
For the first few days when the Holy Spirit started whispering I just hushed it....then I stopped and said.."Really...Lord..are you serious?? Is this me or You??" Still not sure. But I started texting friends and making phone calls. The girls got wind and started their own campaign....TO NOT HOMESCHOOL...
I asked Emily to try and pray about it. I know at this moment she feels like she does not want to but I asked her to ask God what the right thing for her is. I don't know if Emily prays on her own yet. But maybe she needs a good reason. And for Molly...she still follows Emily's lead. But come to think of it...I should set Molly to praying for both Emily and I to know what is right and then maybe Molly will help us decide.
So...now I need to pray. We all need to be on board...or at least I need to feel strongly enough that I can keep it together. I know the challenges and being where we are will really present some challenges.
The big picture....that is what I need to keep in mind.....My story over this whole wonderfully crazy life God has given me.
I need a prayer...I asked a friend for a prayer to help me decide and she said she would get back to me. Then today...PENTACOST...I knew...the Holy Spirit prayer...OF COURSE!!!
I like to be inspired. I was inspired by amazing women the first time I home schooled. And then I stayed home schooling in Mobile because I was surrounded by inspiration. And in Virginia...I had amazing people around me who did amazing things and I somehow lost my inspiration. I blame myself. I am the one who lost focus....maybe I should not say "blame"...but I was the one who lost my own way to be inspired.
I would do things a little different. I would use a different curriculum. I would be different...I think.
I thought I would be this GREAT "school" mom...but to tell the truth ...I was not. I got mad at the girls all the time for things that they were doing in school (school work stuff). I hated after school snack because all they wanted was junk and they would not eat their dinner. The kids needed to PLAY OUTSIDE FOR CRYING OUT LOUD...but they had homework. And Drew was just entering the hold me or I will cry you to death hour of the day. And guess what..the math teacher expected me to know how to help when she was NOT ALLOWED TO BRING HOME THE TEXT BOOK!!!
Right now I don't know..but I am working on it. Should we just start school and see if the different school will be the same place the girls hope it will be?? Should we start at home and then try for school in High School...