Monday, December 10, 2012

Where Are We Now

DSC_0936 A few people have asked me to write about how things are going...you know, with school. Well...I have wanted to write about it before but I feel like so much is constantly changing that it is hard to pin point what exactly to say.

 Let me sum up a few things...

 1. Emily was the one who convinced Molly that school was a good idea. Molly LOVES school with her whole heart. She loves her teacher and has had NO problem making friends. She loves to please people and school is the right place for her to do that..and be recognized for it. Her grades are great..attitude AMAZING!! She has really had NO problems.

 2. Jack is another one who LOVES everything about school. Jack LOVES to talk and he has found that kids at school LOVE to talk with him. He is VERY social and loves all things BOY. He has made lots of friends and when he comes home he tells us EVERYTHING. So cute...

 3. Emily is in middle school. I should just stop the post here. To say things are up and down would be a severe understatement. The thing is..it is not just her. I am up and down too. I see the changes in her and I want them to be positive..but I am sad that my little girl wants to start NOT being a little girl anymore.

 I find that I have a hard time dealing with some of her adjustment issues because I want to fix them....friend trouble...I want to coach her through every possible scenario....teacher issues..I want her to do exactly what I would do.... The thing is some of these issues are very much because Emily is Emily...she is not me. She does not do things the way I do. She is her own person and I think this is the first time in 11 years that I am learning this. Up until now she has been what I allowed her to be...dealt with things the way I did. But now she has her own issues and she is finding her own way through them. I am here!! I am NOT doing that great yet. I need to be better at letting her be her and loving her for it. I can not ask her how things went, then get mad because she did not do what I would have done. I am learning.


 One thing I will tell you is...we talk!! We talk and talk and talk. I pray and pray and pray. I then come back and talk more and more. Sometimes I have to go to bed and wake up early to say..I am sorry I did not handle that well...

 Do I regret sending them??

 Some days I miss the fact that we all once were a pack...and we did everything as a pack. I hate when Emily comes home after having a hard day and my heart breaking. But I am glad that I am here for her now helping her with all these very REAL situations. Life is real and life is hard and I am glad we get to practice together. But...for right now this is a good place for me.

 I like NOT teaching..actually I LOVE not teaching them. I love not planning . I love not being their teacher for subjects like math and science..I LOVE THAT...I love being mommy. I love picking them up off the bus. I love seeing them be proud of a good grade. I love hearing the stories of all that goes on in school today...stories like the ones Pete and I have from when we went to public school


. I am sure I have more to say..but it is 3:15 and Emily is walking through the door..and with that you never know what will happen next...

2 comments:

  1. I am so glad that things seem to be going well. You are an amzaing mom and have/continue to raise wonderful children. Thank you for sharing your life with us, and being truly open and honest about your struggles. :) Miss you!

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  2. Keep up the good work! We miss seeing you! Glad to hear things are going well with public school.

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