The word "if" can pack a punch when you think about it. Just think how much rides on "if". That single word can be used so many different ways. For example, "If I go to the pool than I won't be home to let Drew sleep." Not really life or death there. Maybe not the most powerful example of if...
"If" can mean, if the Coast Guard wants to move you ...THEY can. What if they do?
The what and if together can really be the biggest question of all...
When I am in one those weird moods I can let the "if" of it all really carry me away. What if all this hard work trying to do my best with these kids amounts to nothing. What if they grow up and don't like each other? What if they grow up and don't love God?
And then I have to stop and remember that some people who actually knew Jesus and heard him speak choose NOT to love Him...who am I to have more influence than Jesus himself?
Sometimes "if" can be kinda fun and silly sometimes...
Often times Pete and I will tease each other, playing with the question of.."what if?"
"Pete, what if I wanted to hang a neon Coors Lite sign in our bedroom? And DEMAND to keep it on, blinking, EVERY NIGHT?? What would you do?"
After a good chuckle he will usually return with, "What if I wanted to start collecting Tarantulas?"
It can go on like this, back and forth a few more times, each person upping the "what if's".
Each day there can be a new "what if"..or just "if" looming over me. If I knit tonight I can not sew. If I drink a coffee at 4:00 I will NEVER get to sleep.
I guess life is full of if's. Some more fun than others. You want to know the biggest "what if" of my life??
What if Pete did not love me? What if he did not want to marry me? Who and what would I be?
Scary "what if"...I hate those the most!!