Thursday, June 14, 2012
More Month Than Money
Today is a payday and this is where I usually have an extra pep in my step because I get reloaded. I think I think and talk about money more than most people do. Or at least more than most people share. It feels like money is a big secret or private affair. And in some ways I think there are private aspects of it; I just wish I could know more details about how other people budget/spend/save. I am a specific type person...so I want specifics.
With that being said, should I be specific? I see the conflict about talking exact numbers. I mean $500 to some is a king's ransom...and to other people...not that big of a deal. Nobody wants to make anyone feel bad. More likely, nobody wants to be the one feeling bad either. I am the friend that will say things like, "OK..you have 6 children ...how are you paying for Catholic School???? I mean you guys eat right??" They usually laugh and ignore my question. But REALLY... I would like to know...HOW ARE THEY DOING IT?? I guess they have more money than I do. Is the answer that simple? I always think people are just better at managing what they have and I want to know how they do it.
I want to be good and managing, making and saving money. I am not hugely material but I can see how having more money makes certain paths a bit less bumpy. And is that silly for me to say I am not "material"?? I am a gal who likes cute things..on me, around me and FOR ME!! I try not to focus on it, and sometimes I am good at that, and other times I get the "gimmies".
What brings all this up?? Well, last paycheck we ran out of money before we ran out of days. That is not
entirely true..but we were down pretty low and we still had several days before we got paid. We put ourselves on a budget and even though we don't live pay-check to pay check in the grand sense, we live it in the day to day. I was so mad at myself. What had I done? I don't remember going crazy. I have no lavish jewels to show for the depleted cash. What did I do? I say what did "I do" because the cash we withdraw from the ATM lives in my purse, under my command. And somehow there was not much left and I could not imagine what had happened. SO when last Friday Pete asked me how much cash I had left until next week I had to confess $200. I had just gone grocery shopping...but in this house food goes fast so we knew we were in for a long week with little money left.
Sometimes this, running out of money, really helps me. I catch myself. I take a look at the situation and figure out a way to fix it. I have some fixes. I know the changes I need to make. I will be back tomorrow with more. I know talking about money is not popular...but we all have issues with it and this here is one gals story on how I try to behave better with it...sorry if it is not popular....