Thank you for calling when you were crying! Thank you for thinking me important enough to share your struggles with. Nothing makes me feel closer to someone than when I get the chance to be the one they come to just to cry.
It is never a bother to hear what is making you sad. I learn so much from you and hearing that you sometimes need a good cry makes me feel..."normal" for needing one too.
You think you have made all these mistakes and you "blew" it. You have not my dear friend. All the times you told them the truth and constantly pointed them to the right and Godly way of thinking...those times are all you NOT BLOWING IT!! And these moments of you showing them them and teaching them happen way more than the mistakes do.
I know I have told you this in the past and you always laugh and blow me off, but you changed my life. In the short time we got to be in each other's daily life, you helped make me who I am right now. I learned so much from you even when you were not meaning to teach me...just from me watching you be you. Your kids got that chance everyday...you have made them who they are...and they are so good!!
God gave you to each other. Do not forget that. He choose you to make them into His son and His daughter. And you have done that with His grace. He has been with you through each moment, the good and the bad.
I can not imagine the day when my first born leaves this house. What will my life look like then. Will I have regret? Will I wish time to stand still? I can only hope that the next part of her life will be a new chapter of her story and she will make all the best moments I gave her the ones she remembers.
I have fought the good fight, I have finished the race, I have kept the faith.
Remember that....you have kept the faith. You can say this. You can own this !! You DID THIS!!
Wish I were walking with you tomorrow. In those woods. In that weather.
And I wish I were there on Monday when your oldest finishes his own race!! My prayers and heart are with you.
Call to cry anytime. Lord knows I have!!
And just a little side note: I love this verse!!! I thought you might too!
Do you not know that in a race all the runners run, but only one gets the prize? Run in such a way as to get the prize.