Thursday, December 29, 2011

Almost January... And Still Growing

I am really not that vain.  Even though I have a blog that features mostly...me.  And recently I have been knitting a lot for ...me. And maybe taking lots of pictures of ...me wearing those knitted items. I promise I am not that vain.
I am just pregnant for the 9th time and I know that once this time is gone, and the belly shrinks back, I will never remember what this all felt like and what I looked like pregnant.
Thankfully the memory of leg cramps and back pain will also fade.  So will the memories of spending most of Christmas day sitting because I was having some trouble with some parts that make it hard to stand when they are SWOLLEN!! 
I will have this baby and then immediately look at all pregnant women with that little sense of envy.  I will wonder what it would be like to be pregnant again.  I know me.  I will forget all of this.  The sleepless, uncomfortable nights when you pee 45 times 1 teaspoon each time.  I will forget that the last days leading up to baby take an eternity to pass.
I won't remember that I wear the same jeans EVERYDAY because they are the only ones that feel comfortable. 
I will just want to know the feeling of being pregnant again.

Well, here I am...pregnant. I feel...pregnant.  Sometimes it makes me smile until it hurts and then sometimes.....
it JUST HURTS!!!
But this will end.  This will all be part of my story and I WILL FORGET how I felt and how I looked.  But thanks to my many knitted objects I have a pretty good record of how I looked this fall while I grew this little baby.  No other belly of mine has been this photographed.
With some of the kids I have no pictures of me pregnant..NOT THE CASE HERE!!  So thank you for bearing with ...
MORE OF ME!!  I have grown this pregnancy more than any other.  I have had to change myself in more ways than ever before. 
I am supposed to have this baby on January 18th by c-section.  This will be my 4th c-section and I can promise you no more belly shots after January 18th...nobody wants to remember that....especially me!! 






4 comments:

  1. I don't blame you one bit. One of my regrets of being pregnant with my daughter is not taking pictures of me. I do not have any "belly shots" and very few of my whole body during my pregnancy. That's something I want to change for the next pregnancy.

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  2. I'v been reading your blog about a half a year and so thankful for it- that gives some joy and power to my life with only two kids:)
    I had two c-section and very afraid of third. You are very brave, and God bless you.

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  3. Thanks for the reminder about how all of this fades after baby is born. I've got just over 2 months to go, what I think is a case of PUPPP rash and while my brain feels ready to conquer anything, my body just doesn't agree. I think there is only 1 photo of me this pregnancy...something I will try to remedy.

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  4. You look absolutely wonderful! Thank you for sharing your journey! Wishing you wonderful (and as comfortable as possible) expectation these next three weeks!

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