Thursday, July 21, 2011

On Being God's Messenger

Things happen for a reason and sometimes we don't understand the reason until all is said and done.  I know I am not the only person to point that out but when something happens to you and you  have clarity on the "why" it feels...profound.

I know God used me today for a specific reason and I feel so honored to have been part of His plan.  Let me explain....

 Yesterday I got myself all jazzed up for my 1st OB appointment.  I had asked many moms in the area where they go and they all said..."The Tepeyac Family Clinic!"  This clinic is a pro-life clinic that has devoted itself to helping women protect the sanctity of life and they do lots of it for free. I called 2 weeks ago and got my appointment for YESTERDAY at 10:15.  On Tuesday the office called to CONFIRM my WEDNESDAY appointment.  Great..all systems GO!!
 I was so looking forward to this appointment because I had yet to be seen with this baby and since I have had 2 miscarriage back to back I am a little...sensitive about this baby.  I go, check in, and sit down waiting for them to call me to hand me the 10 pound stack of new patient info.  Instead they call me to tell me that my appointment is not Today (Wednesday)...but Thursday.  Are you kidding me??  This is the clinic that all these moms say they can't live without??? 
 My heart is broken, no heartbeat today.  I am LIVID with anger..why did you guys call to confirm?  Are you kidding me?  Is this one of those situations that if I act right or wrong NBC's Dateline will come out from behind the closed doors and question my reaction....None of the above...just a "You can come back tomorrow for your regular appointment."  THIS IS MY REGULAR APPOINTMENT!!!  Anyway ..after some changing things around with Pete and the Dr.'s office I got an appointment for today.

 At first it was going to be late afternoon because Pete had to work today and then things got changed so he could go to work AFTER I got back.  I was all set to go hear my babies heart beat at 10:15!!
 I check in they hand me my paperwork and they tell me.".you will be seen by Dr. Anderson today."  Great!!  I just wanted to be seen!! I get through all the usual check in stuff and I sit in the room .  The nurse comes in and she gives me some info and then this guy opens the door and says.."Hi I am Dr. Bruchalski I am going to see you today instead of Dr. Anderson."  And then he says I will be right back.  He closes the door and I ask the nurse.."Is he the Dr. that started the clinic?"  "That's him," she says "And he is wonderful."
 I really knew very little about him outside of things people have told me.  I know he goes all over the country speaking about being a pro-life Dr. and that he is really well known in this area.  My first reaction was to be a little nervous...was I pregnant enough to command such a high profile Dr?  You know, very useful thoughts.  But as soon as he walked in the door I knew what people raved about.  You felt VERY taken care of and wonderfully looked after.
After he saw this was my 10th pregnancy he said to me.."I know we are not supposed to give you an ultrasound today..but I am sure after all those losses you would like to see this baby."  This guy ROCKS!!  He shows me my baby and all is good with the world!!

He then leads me to a small office to ask me if I have any more questions and I say.."Not really..just..is this going to hurt as much as last time?"  He just laughed and said, "You'll have to tell me!!"
He the bows his head and begins praying for me and my baby...for a blessed pregnancy and healthy outcome for all....

 And now this is where this all become clear for me..this is the part of the story that explains the why....
 After he gets done praying I look up at him and say.."You need to open a chain of these clinics!"  He stops dead still, stares at me REALLY hard and REALLY long and then he drops his head in his hands and begins to cry!!  I have to say ..I was FREAKING out..did he misunderstand me?  Did I insult him??  Why did I say such a silly thing after such a beautiful prayer...who talks about franchising something after someone prays over you...
 After an uncomfortable time of silence I say.."I am so sorry..did I????....."

He responds "I can not believe you just said that right after our prayer.  I opened this clinic 18 years ago with the intention of opening more.  Things never worked out and there was no call to do that.  All of a sudden this year I have had people from all over the country asking me to come and PLEASE open a clinic in their area.  My wife and I have been praying and trying to decide what God would have us do.  Me opening more clinics would take me away from here and that is going to be hard to do.  But we wanted to do God's will.  And just this morning I sat in prayer asking God to please give me a clear answer, a clear message.  I feel like I have waited and prayed so long I just want to know and then the first patient I have this morning says so clearly to me..you need to open up  a chain.  I just can't believe you said that."
It was a cool moment.  I was humbled..God used me.  He had me speak for Him.  He helped someone through me. It all of a sudden felt so INTENTIONAL...so specific..so PLANNED!! The appointment mistake..the Dr. switch...Pete going to work later...me missing a fun night at a friends...it all made sense.
 I got lucky today and know it. That feels cool...
 And I hope that I am worthy of God's choosing again and I hope I can keep that in mind when things don't always go according to my plans...

And try to remember....HE HAS BETTER ONES!!

16 comments:

  1. It is awesome that the doctor could hear God speak through you! :) I am so glad you got to see your baby today.

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  2. What a wonderful, wonderful story! And I'm so happy that you got to see your beautiful baby. God is good.

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  3. That's a great story - and I'm so impressed with a doctor who would pray for you like that. Hopefully he will start a chain of clinics

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  4. How beautiful! We are just along for the ride.

    God bless you, dear friend.

    Kathy

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  5. i have tears in my eyes after reading that. what an amazing God we serve:)

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  6. Lisa, now you understand about Tepeyac . . . it's a place of miracles! I'm so glad you and your baby are doing well! God bless.

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  7. How amazing! I hope the first one he opens is down here!

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  8. What a special thing to be able to recognize God's hand in our lives. I'm glad all is well with the baby.

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  9. Wow ~ one of the greatest things I have read in a long time. So amazing.You are blessed to have such a wonderful doctor too! I hope he opens that chain....we need more medical practices like this one.

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  10. This story made me cry....granted, I am six weeks post-partum and I miss you.
    Glad to hear that you've seen the baby and not surprised a bit that God used you in that situation yesterday.
    You are an amazing woman!
    -Angelle

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  11. i wish a clinic like that had been available for my 4 babies...but i was fortunate enough to have godly midwives deliver ours...thanks for sharing.

    alison

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  12. Wow...an amazing story. It's so good to be used by God!

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  13. I got chills-- that is sooooo cool.

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  14. My mom reads your blog and forwarded me a link to this post. I too am a patient of Dr. John Bruchalski and Tepeyac Family Center. Their affect on my life has been so profound that I now do volunteer work for the non-profit organization that helps raise money for them to see charity patients. The theme of our annual fundraising Gala this year is “Christ’s Hands here on earth” and we are working on gathering testimonials from people to use in various ways at the Gala. If you would be willing to share your story as a testimonial for our Gala could you please contact me at mbaroudi@mac.com. Thank you!

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