Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Homeschool Part 2


So there we were..a Kindergartner, a 4 year old , a 1 year old and a 6 week old, new to Mobile, not a friend in sight and a wee bit shell shocked returning to the lower 48 with double the family size and now homeschooling as well.  I was a little freaked out...to say the least.  But there was no turning back and I had to sink or swim , and I decided to swim.


However, I clung on the wall for a long time.  What does that mean??  I would not fully admit to myself or other non- homeschoolers that I was actually homeschooling because I wanted to.  When we met neighbors, after I went door to door trying to find kids in the neighborhood, I would tell them, "I am homeschooling this year because we moved here so late and I was not able to get them in anywhere, so we decided to keep them home this year.  It's just Kindergarten anyway."  Even with that great explanation I still felt the judgements pass between me and whoever I was speaking to .  I would get sick to my stomach anytime someone questioned me or the kids asking, "Where do they go to school?"


Whenever I met new people I would explain away the reason we decided to homeschool.  I never wanted anyone to judge me or think I was judging them.  The other moms on my block were not the most accepting of the new homeschooling family so I was a little intimidated.  This feeling lasted a long time... 


Until recently when I realized that I no longer cringe when people ask me where my kids go to school.  The other day at the pool another mom began talking to me about school and what we do, not knowing I was a homechooler,  I proudly told her our school choice was ME!!  A dad from across the pool came over and started asking me a few questions...before I knew it I was informing several moms in the baby pool the finer points of homeschooling with little people.  After I concluded the small information session I realized that I no longer am insecure about my decsion to homeschool.  I no longer worry what people might think.  It took about 2 full years for me to realize NOBODY CARES WHAT I DO!!!  And guess what I don't care what other people do.  I love chatting with moms about school, teachers and lunch room nonsense.  There is no perfect solution to every problem.  All I know is I finally feel free in this decision we have made.
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4 comments:

  1. My daughter goes to Springhill. What a beautiful place! She loves it down there.

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  2. I'm so glad somebody finally wrote a post about homeschooling! Come October, we'll have a 4 year old, 3 year old, 2 year old and a newborn. So we'll have about a year or so to make our final decision, but we're stuck between Catholic school and homeschooling. I really want to homeschool and my husband wants to send them to school. We're both open to each idea at this point, but I've been wanting to hear others' personal stories about how they made their decisions and how they handle it day to day now that they made a choice. Thanks for sharing! If you have any advice I'd love to hear it!

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  3. Amen, Lisa! You tell 'em. We are going to homeschool Gwen this fall and I am a wreck. Logically, I know I am a smarter-than-average gal and that I will have no major issues with this. My head and my gut and my heart even, are so wonky about it though. I'm totally nervous and uptight about it. Thanks so much for walking us through your thought process. I think I can really do this, and do it well.

    Maybe. :)

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  4. AWE, what a beautiful ending! I am still at the point that I throw it out there and HOPE that people don't cringe or question. I just had my session with MODG and I am more confident than ever that we made the right CHOICE. Thank you for sharing your story and good luck to all your friends who are in turmoil about this CHOICE!

    =)

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